Well I felt myself getting sick over the weekend but knowing we had a Mobile Store event, I kept pushing. We ended up working 16 hours Monday and it was a great event. But Tuesday I woke up down for the count with flu like symptoms. Thankfully, I have a job that is flexible and understanding. I stayed home Tuesday through today with baby girl and I both being sick. Seriously, I am not sure how we made it through the days. I think we were both living for daddy to get home in the afternoon so that he could pick up all of the scattered pieces and save the day. Dramatic, yes. But those were my feelings in the moment. HA.
The best part of the last few days(because looking for the positive is a necessity)? Getting to focus on Ann Rainey. Ya'll being a mom is FUN. It is the hardest, most confusing, most frustrating job in the world but I love it. She is at the age where she is developing her little personality and she and I love to just play and laugh together. There were several moments where I thought I couldn't get my head to stop pounding long enough to complete a thought and I may have prayed for nap times to come swiftly and last a long time, but I loved the one on one time with her without worrying about work.
One of my goals for the year is to be more intentional with my time. I'll be honest, during our sick days, I actually got on facebook for personal use. Twice. This is absolute progress for me. At the end of the year, I deleted facebook from my phone. I still have the Pages app on my phone for work but I cannot access facebook on my phone except through my chrome browser. I still have my instagram posts going to facebook so I check my notifications but beyond that, I don't browse. At first I missed it. But now I really don't... In fact, one of those 2 times I had browsed only for a few minutes when I saw an absolutely ridiculous post that reminded me of why I wanted to step away from it in the first place.
Facebook as a whole is not a bad thing. It is a great way to keep in touch with friends and family. But for me, it is a place where I waste too much time. I would scroll and scroll, often seeing the same posts multiple times. And worse, seeing posts that are more negative than positive. I would lose track of time looking at things that do nothing to build me up and honestly don't benefit my family in any way, shape or form. There are times I still feel the urge to "just look for a minute" but I remind myself that it is NEVER just a minute. And that minute could be devoted to something else. Like baby snuggles. Lots of baby snuggles and kisses and snorts.